And precious they are...
This job is what typically causes a period of silence during the months of January to April on this blog-o-mine. This year, not only did have have my April conference to plan, but I also birthed a child, who although precious has made the past 2 months a little extra busy and sleep deprived.
All this to say... this is why I have been a lame-o blogger of late. I hope to do better come May.
However, I wonder if I am being realistic in my expectations for myself in the coming future.
I have done this before... had the thought that if I could just change one thing in my life: lose 15 pounds, get one task off my plate, have a little more cash in the bank account, get married, have a baby, control my appetite, have a bigger house, have a different car, get a cute hair cut, ...
The one thing changes depending upon my circumstances in a season, but I find that I am almost always looking to change something in my life that I believe will alleviate my current stress level, simplify my life, or just make me feel better.
Right now, I keep thinking that once the conference is over that I will be a more attentive wife and mother... a better friend...a better sister...a better daughter. I keep thinking about how I am going to enjoy my roles so much more once I have less stress.
And there may be some truth to that... but this side of Heaven, there's always going to be stress. Isn't stress, pain, grief, hardship just a manifestation of our longing for Heaven? A tangible ache for the loss of paradise?
I don't mean to sound pessimistic or complain that I'll never be content because I can''t manage to find balance in this life. Rather, I just want to confess that I often put my hope in the wrong things...
And after all, there is only one thing that matters.
But the LORD answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and distracted by many things; there is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part, which will not be taken away from her."
P.S. If you want to pray for me and the conference next week... I'd covet your prayers. The event is next Wednesday - Friday in Chicago.